What Should Have Been Said...

“Too often they don't realize what they have until it's gone.
...they're too stubborn to say, 'Sorry, I was wrong'
they hurt the ones closest to their hearts,
and we let the most foolish things tear us apart”
― Marilyn Monroe

Well Monday is here, and we will get into my weekend some other time. This weekend I screwed up. My words (Which we all know I flow rather loosely), have hurt someone I care about very much. The blog I wrote last Friday morning, I was upset (and still a little drunk).

I ruined four years worth of trust, because of a misunderstanding. I should never blog, text, or Facebook when I am mad. I have learned however, that not everything needs to be written about, but everything does need to be talked about. Somethings just need not be said in writing. I can't take anything back, because its all in print. However, I hope to someday get forgiveness, but if its not given, I will understand. This person knows me probably better than I know myself. All of our feelings, plans, etc, ruined because I had a lapse of reason. Every time I see how much I have hurt her, I feel worse, and I should. I miss the text messages, the talks, and I'm sure I'll miss the e-mails. If I am ever forgive, we have a lot to talk about, and I know we can move forward, but this blog will never see that. I just have to realize the responsibility I take onto myself by writing about everyday life. Everything needs to be said, just not here.

Well that all being said, Tomorrow will be a brighter day, but today I will keep thinking about what I have done, and what I have been thinking all weekend.

I hope everyone has a great week! PT test in 5 days. Here we go....

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