Sleep

“I had a dream about you last night... you were a

giant slinky and I watched you fall down the stairs.”
― Amy Summers, I Had a Dream About You

Sleep is overrated.... However, I miss it.

On drill weekends, I get very little sleep, especially when we are in the barracks. Its either too hot or too cold, too loud or too quiet. The conditions just aren't there for me. We go to sleep late, and wake up early. I know, I know its life, however, I am still catching up from last weekend.

That all being said, I still love the Army. It is as much a part of me, as I am a part of it. I'm still hoping to go AGR, but I am waiting on my reclass. Seems they are having trouble putting it in....

We'll see how it goes...

Have a great one all!

Life

Life is what you make of it. You win some, you lose some, and sometimes, you break even...

That all being said, some people are just fucking morons...

I mean seriously, go and live your life. Stop worrying about what everyone else is doing. I choose to be happy, and every step I take, makes this happen. I have a great woman, I love the Army and I can't wait until I someday go active duty. I am currently in school, so my time free is very little, and theres not a day that goes by that I don't study. That's life. I am a life long learner, and whether is college, or an Army school, I am going to put forth my best effort. period.

Anyways.... If you don't like what I can or can't do, then fuck off. I have my support system, and that's all I need, I have family that supports me no matter how hard it is.

No more will be said about this... So don't ask...

Have a great day all!!! I know I will

LSU

Happy Thursday All!!!!

Well today is my Friday, but I have reserves all weekend. Long drills are now a fact of life, but a necessary evil. I love the Army, so I will just bare it and accept my fate.


OK, so yesterday was SEC media day, and as we all know, I am a BIG LSU fan (GEAUX TIGERS). So ESPN was talking about where they would finish today... One guy said 5th.... Who the hell is he kidding!!! He said behind Alabama, Auburn, Ole Miss, and Mississippi State.... This guy is delusional. the other news anchor said 3rd. I can understand his reasoning behind third, but I still don't agree with it. Even though they are a young team, that just means they have more years together.

I guess we'll just see where it all plays out...

Have a great one all! No post tomorrow...

Like Knights of old, Let's fight to hold
The glory of the Purple Gold.
Let's carry through, Let's die or do
To win the game for dear old LSU.
Keep trying for that high score;
Come on and fight,
We want some more, some more.
Come on you Tigers, Fight! Fight! Fight!
for dear old L-S-U.

All-In

“If you've been playing poker for half an hour and you still don't know who the patsy is, you're the patsy.”
― Warren Buffett

 

 

Last night I was sitting at home, and I realized... I miss playing poker.

 

It was on TV, and I yearned to be there. I'm not talking about free poker. Free Poker has a place on its own, but the people can be a little too reckless, and don't take it as a social gathering in which is meant to be. I'm talking about cash tournaments.

 

The smell of the felt, the smoke, the cards. The sound of a shuffle. The people looking into your eyes and not knowing what you are doing, but in your head you already know what they are about to do.

 

The feeling you get when you bet $100, into a $50 pot, because you already know a sucker is going to call, and you have his hand crushed.

 

Pushing all-in with a sub-par hand, and catching a river card to win.

 

The smell and look of defeat when you take an opponents rent money, and they start to cry...

 

Its all part of the game. Win some, Lose some, and sometimes you break even...

 

Worst part about it, I was a damn good poker player. Yes, I had my moments where I would pull something stupid or get caught in a bluff that someone had no reason calling. It happens.

 

Due to circumstances and a wedding, I can no longer go and play for the stakes I used to. I don't think the little lady would understand how good I used to be.

 

Someone inform her? LOL 

Times Change

“People want to change everything and, at the same time, want it all to remain the same.”
― Paulo Coelho, The Devil and Miss Prym

 

 

 

To think, no matter what happens in life you always want a constant norm, something in life that says hey, this is my life. At the same time, you want to change the bad, but when you change the bad, something has to give. Not everything in life is all titty sprinkles and glitter. There will always be some type of stress in life.

 

For me, Its a wedding, work, school, and the ongoing battle of two females taking over my house.

 

Lets start with wedding planning- Its not easy trying to give a woman you love everything she wants while at the same time, trying to get something you want into a wedding, and trying to stay in budget. She's hard headed, but so am I. I like to think that she sees the way I'm thinking, but this may be a unicorn (Mythical creature that you think is there, but everyone knows that it isn't).

 

Work- It sucks... The drive is killing me. I start out stressed and just continue out from there.

 

School- Its good, but there is a lot of work, but a very little amount of time to complete it. I do work everyday, but it never seems like there is enough time. I wonder how my dad juggled everything when he was younger???

 

The house- I love the women in my house, but I am slowly losing all of the space. This will come in time and I will get used to it. I had all my stuff where I wanted it, now theres trees in the living room... I mean, WTF?!!? Trees are meant to be outdoors. I'm adjusting, but its hard.

 

OK, that's enough of me for the day... Have a great one all!!! 

Welcome Back

“Get Off The Scale!

You are beautiful. Your beauty, just like your capacity for life, happiness, and success, is immeasurable. Day after day, countless people across the globe get on a scale in search of validation of beauty and social acceptance.

Get off the scale! I have yet to see a scale that can tell you how enchanting your eyes are. I have yet to see a scale that can show you how wonderful your hair looks when the sun shines its glorious rays on it. I have yet to see a scale that can thank you for your compassion, sense of humor, and contagious smile. Get off the scale because I have yet to see one that can admire you for your perseverance when challenged in life.

It’s true, the scale can only give you a numerical reflection of your relationship with gravity. That’s it. It cannot measure beauty, talent, purpose, life force, possibility, strength, or love. Don’t give the scale more power than it has earned. Take note of the number, then get off the scale and live your life. You are beautiful!”
― Steve Maraboli, Life, the Truth, and Being Free

 

 

 

Well I'm back everyone... Due to lack of ideas, and lack of readers, I took some time off, found myself, and came back in a blaze of glory....

 

Just kidding, I'm back until I get writers block again.

 

Well, here's what has been happening the last 6 months or so...

 

1) I'm getting married.... Yup, stop laughing... The guy who said at one point in his life that he was never going to get married again is in the process of planning round 2. Shes a pretty girl, but she stresses about stupid stuff. That's what the quote is about. She's not really a big but she pisses and moans about her weight on a daily basis. Shit gets old quickly. Anyways, shes a good girl. We have our moments because she's just as stubborn and set in her ways (good and bad) as I am. I love her, so that's all that really matters.

 

Back to the wedding planning. This stuff is tough. Money, money, time, more money, stress, and etc... She wants everything her way, I want to SOME things to be a compromise. There's a good chance in the end that it will be 98.5% her way, but come on!!!! Its my wedding too.... That all being said, its coming along. We aren't getting married until June 13, 2015, if my annulment goes though. If not, I will be up shit creek with no paddle, or a canoe....

 

2) I have gone back to school. Last Monday was my first experience of online education. Its a lot of work, but in about a year I will have my degree in Exercise Science, with 6 certifications... YAY Me!

 

 

Well, that's all I really feel like writing about now. Please share my blog with everyone you know. I do this not only for myself, but for the readers. Without you, this would only be my thoughts in a secret little notebook.... 

A year

Happy Friday All!

What a difference a year makes. This time last year, I was unsure about my future, lonely, and was just semi-unhappy with myself and my situation.

Well, now I have a great woman, who makes me feel not-lonely, still unsure about the future, but happy I get to take the journey with someone I actually love. I'm happy to a point. There are things I want to do with my life still, but I know which direction I would like to go in.

That's enough of the mushy stuff, here's the outlook for my weekend:

Friday- Crossfit at 5. Then I have a little girls soccer game to attend. Who would ever have thought I was going to be the soccer dad type? Then back to the house to take apart some stuff, and get boxes ready for tomorrow.

Saturday- Heading up to my brothers house to see my nephew, brother, and his wife. We are going out to lunch for some pizza... I miss pizza. It should be its own food group.

Sunday- Busy day. We have a BBQ tasting for the wedding around 1pm, then we have to go and check out the Middletown Fire Halls' event center. I also have to work in the Daytona 500, and cleaning.... Like I said, its going to be busy.

Well, that's all I have for today! I hope everyone has a great weekend!

Stress!!!

What the Hell is wrong with me???

Happy Thursday all! Well, to you all I hope its happy, but to me, I have issues..

Lets start with me stressing about every little thing. I mean seriously, I'm flipping out. I used to be happy-go-lucky, but now I stress.

Work is fine, but I feel the drive is going to kill me. Which in turn, puts me in a bad mood for the rest of the day. Then I have to turn around and do it again. Which puts me in an even worse mood for when I get home.

This wedding planning stuff is stressing me out. My problem is, I know I don't care that much about the when and where. This is her wedding. I want to give her everything she wants. However, the money thing drives me nuts. I get mad at little things, and this should be the happiest time of my life right????

I need a new house. Mine is falling apart around me. I have things to fix in it, but I'm not sure of the price or time it will take.

However, even though I had a bad stressful day yesterday, she brought me bacon.... Maybe she does love me?

Well, have a great day everyone! I have a million things to do today, so its time to get started... 

Off the Deep End

Happy Hump Day All!

Well, I may have gone off the deep end on this one. I am trying to get my wedding reception at Camp David in Thurmont, Md. Yes, this is the presidential retreat. No, I'm not the president...

See where this could be a little bit of a problem? Some may say I'm crazy. You may be right. Oh, well. If you don't try it will never happen, will it?

So what I did at first was send an e-mail to the White House. I don't think that will even be seen. So I started a petition....

If I get 100,000 signatures, They have to look at it. So, If I can ask a favor and get everyone to sign this and share it with everyone you know. that would be awesome!!!

https://petitions.whitehouse.gov/petition/let-patricia-mcdonnell-and-spc-samuel-e-hassell-use-camp-david-their-wedding-reception-june-13-2015/DPLK4d8y

Well, that's all I have for today! Have a great one all!

Welcome Back

“There is never a time or place for true love. It happens accidentally, in a heartbeat, in a single flashing, throbbing moment.”
― Sarah Dessen, The Truth About Forever

 

 

Well, Welcome back me.... Its been a while, but I needed time off. Between work, the gym, and the woman, who has time to put their thoughts on paper? Well, I am going to go back to writing every day, and watching that nobody every reads this thing anyways. Maybe I'll get surprised, but in the end, it doesn't matter. I am here, getting my thoughts on paper, freeing my mind, and not giving a care about anything other than whats going on in my life.

 

For those that don't know, I proposed to my girlfriend a week ago today. After screwing with her head about a ring she loved (I even had her call the shop after I had already bought it, and she found out someone had bought it), I did it while she was cooking dinner. Now, some people will complain that I didn't do it right.... Well guess what? She said yes, and when the hell has anyone ever known me to do anything traditionally?

 

I never thought I would get married again. Well, I guess, things happen. Its the right person, the right time, and I couldn't ask for anything more. For those that don't know, I got to beautiful ladies for the price of one, so to say. She has a beautiful little daughter that I love spending time with. Things couldn't have worked out better.

 

That all being said, This planning out a wedding thing is rough. In what I thought was going to be the most fun we had, we constantly fight. I would say that its time for us to put the boxing gloves on and have it out, but who am I kidding? She would simply kick my ass, and I really don't need the embarrassment. Whenever I think we have something settled, It changes. She's stubborn, I'm stubborn, this is going to be a long 16 months.

 

We are having to pay for everything ourselves, so we are trying to budget out a wedding for 300 people. We both have fairly large families, and how do you cut family? Sorry if some people don't get invited, but feel free to send money and gifts before hand, I can use it. Lol...

 

The wedding date is tentatively set for June 13, 2015. There's time there, but I still need to get an annulment from my first marriage, which includes Catholic classes and a whole bunch of other stuff... Should be fun... Right?

 

This shit scares the hell out of me. I want to make everything perfect for her. Maybe I try to hard? I don't even know everything we need for a wedding. Last time, It was fly to Vegas, and show up at the Venue. I didn't have to do all of this Engagement Party, Church, Caterer, Reception Hall, Favors, Music, Cake, etc, etc, etc.... This is not cool.... I tend to flip out slightly, its overwhelming...

 

OK, Deeeeeeeeepppppp Breathe.....

 

Well, that's all for today! See you all tomorrow! I hope you have a great one! Pray for me!!!