Happy Tuesday All... Well, I hope yours is good at least. Really mine is fine, I knew today was coming, but it doesn't mean I have to like it.
I went to have a little chat with my surgeon yesterday. After waiting for 3 hours to be seen, my only option left is surgery. I really was just hoping that the doctor would say "quit being a pussy, this is all in your head. Go run". Well, I'm fucked... They have to do an exploratory surgery because he isn't exactly sure whats causing the back of the knee pain, and while he is in there, he is going to fix all the front of the knee. I will be out of regular work for at least 3 weeks, and military type duties for six months (at least that's what the Dr says, Sorry Doc, but I'm out to prove you wrong).
This is bull-shit. I have worked my ass off to come this far. I feel angry, defeated, and really can't think of a bright side to any of it, other than in the end, I will be better. This puts everything I have worked for on hold. The whole time I was worried about others holding me back, and telling me I couldn't do something... In the end, its my own damn body that's telling me to slow down. Fuck you knees... I'll tell you like I tell everyone else, I'm not going to let you hold me back, nothing holds me back. I WILL GET BETTER!!!
The worst thing you can do to a soldier is take away their legs. No running? Yea right. Yesterday, I got my 6 week profile. It says I am un-deployable... That's the second worse thing you can tell a soldier. I joined the Army (twice now), to protect the world from flag burning hippies, because their sorry asses won't do it. I did it to keep freedom from terrorists, and to protect every right we have as a free country. Now, I am a broke dick. Don't feel sorry for me, I will defeat this.
In the end, I am thankful for the great support system I have. I hate to ask for help, but unfortunately, this time, I will have to ask. I won't even be able to do simple tasks, like mow the lawn, walk, etc. SO I am thanking all of my true friends now. I'll make it up to you all somehow, and thanks for putting up with my cranky, broke ass self. Anyone that has been in this much pain knows my deal...
Well, that's all for now. I hope everyone has a great day.
I went to have a little chat with my surgeon yesterday. After waiting for 3 hours to be seen, my only option left is surgery. I really was just hoping that the doctor would say "quit being a pussy, this is all in your head. Go run". Well, I'm fucked... They have to do an exploratory surgery because he isn't exactly sure whats causing the back of the knee pain, and while he is in there, he is going to fix all the front of the knee. I will be out of regular work for at least 3 weeks, and military type duties for six months (at least that's what the Dr says, Sorry Doc, but I'm out to prove you wrong).
This is bull-shit. I have worked my ass off to come this far. I feel angry, defeated, and really can't think of a bright side to any of it, other than in the end, I will be better. This puts everything I have worked for on hold. The whole time I was worried about others holding me back, and telling me I couldn't do something... In the end, its my own damn body that's telling me to slow down. Fuck you knees... I'll tell you like I tell everyone else, I'm not going to let you hold me back, nothing holds me back. I WILL GET BETTER!!!
The worst thing you can do to a soldier is take away their legs. No running? Yea right. Yesterday, I got my 6 week profile. It says I am un-deployable... That's the second worse thing you can tell a soldier. I joined the Army (twice now), to protect the world from flag burning hippies, because their sorry asses won't do it. I did it to keep freedom from terrorists, and to protect every right we have as a free country. Now, I am a broke dick. Don't feel sorry for me, I will defeat this.
In the end, I am thankful for the great support system I have. I hate to ask for help, but unfortunately, this time, I will have to ask. I won't even be able to do simple tasks, like mow the lawn, walk, etc. SO I am thanking all of my true friends now. I'll make it up to you all somehow, and thanks for putting up with my cranky, broke ass self. Anyone that has been in this much pain knows my deal...
Well, that's all for now. I hope everyone has a great day.
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